b natural. c sharp.

So I wrote a nice long entry.. and when I went to submit it I got an error and lost it. Sucks. (:

Current Mood: Sleepy

Finally the weekend is over.. I worked Friday and Saturday nights at Merriweather, then today at Cafe Bagel and right after that back to Merriweather. I’m spent. I guess it’s good cuz I’m making a lot of money, but it’s wearing me down. I don’t have too much to do right now other than work anyway. I figure it’s better to keep myself busy than sit around and have time to think and get myself unecessarily upset. Unfortunately, I’m really good at doing that. =D

I’m working again tomorrow, but that’s at 10, so I get to sleep in a little bit. (: Veronica and I were offered a job in the office at Merriweather during the week. It’s great because it’s only 10-3 and we can split up the days however we want to. I’m pretty sure we get a little bit of a raise too. More money is always a plus. (:

I should be set for at least a while when I’m at Towson. Not sure if I’ll be getting a job there or not.. maybe at one of the coffee shops or something. I really don’t know yet. I’m not sure what to expect. I just am really excited to able to finally be somewhat on my own. I still don’t know what it’s like to be able to stay out without concern that anybody is waiting up for you. I’m grateful that my parents care about me so much, but at the same time I’m going insane because I need to be given some kind of space. I’m afraid of things as simple as going to new places becuase I’ve always been so tied down. Ah well, only a month or so left. My biggest fear is that they’re going to continue it when I come back on breaks and such. I’ll flip out. Bah, we’ll see.

Current Emotion: Silly

So.. I’m jealous that Veronika’s journal has a thing set apart for emotions.. with different smilies. I, however, only have 7 smilies. Only 5 of which are faces… and 4 of which can even be considered emotions. That slut.

That’s okay, she doesn’t have eProps. What now?!

… What the hell is an eProp? If I only knew.. haha I tried to search xanga’s site.. and I got:

“Search needs big servers!

Search is surprisingly expensive to run (it uses a lot of server power). We hope to be able to offer search to everyone someday, but right now we can support search only on our premium servers.”

I, unlike Veronika, do not pay for my online journal, so I can’t search the site. Damn it all to hell. (:

Current Mood: Indifferent

Dreams will be the death of me.. I need to stop doing this to myself. I constantly day dream of things I wish would happen. I KNOW they won’t happen, but WISH so much that they would… I’m a fool. I just need to realize that things aren’t going to go my way and I have no control over it no matter how much I want it.

Current Mood: Sad

I always told myself I would never get one of these stupid things… I know if I have it I’ll tell the truth and bear my soul, and people will get hurt or hurt me. I don’t want to create any more drama in my life, I was done with that a long time ago.

But I think it’s time that I have a new journal.. writing on paper is too difficult for me, I’m a lazy bastard.. So, this is my new journal.

I’m pathetic and don’t really know what to do with myself. Time will heal. However, time can kiss my ass, because it can and does hurt. Meh.